Thursday, March 26, 2015

Mom's Development at week 10

Thanks God I feel much better now.  Evening sickness starts to subside. I don't know because I'm trying to supress it or it's subside naturally.
Because in the past few days, I've been praying to God to give my old self back with full of spirit and positive energy. I prayed for good health as well especially in the evening when I feel dumping myself to the bed hahaha...

And slowly, it's all back again. I can do what I need to do in the afternoon and in the evening I still can do some mild activities

My weight has been stabil around 48.5 kg

Week 10 - baby development

Yeayy, it's now week 10. Yesterday we had a regular check up and we could see that the baby is moving happily inside my womb.
I could see a little hand is trying to reach out or playing bubble perhaps :)

The length is 31.96mm which is smaller than Tromson in my second pregnancy.
Thanks God everything is good and her heart beat is pretty strong too

Sunday, March 8, 2015

I'm the handmaid of the Lord, Let's His will be done unto me

Well, apparently this third pregnancy was a surprised for everybody when I announced that.
But it's more surprising to see the response of them especially in this modern era when most of them value having more children as failure instead of blessing.

When I announced my third pregnancy, their first responses of course Congratulations ! (it's called manner)
Then the next responses were
"did you plan it ?". " I never believe in NFP", "I can't imagine how I will lose my freedom if I have another more", "I will be more strict now in my sex life", "I will prefer using other birth control method than NFP"

I was surprised getting this kinda responses, oh well....This is the first response too when I see the result of my pregnancy test pack. Until I got the courage to accept things that this is part of God's plans
In this modern era, kids are valued as burden instead of blessings and it's really happening in this society. And it happens in our catholic society too. It's kinda sad though...

When people ask me what will you do after this for birth control, I will say NFP.
Hubby ever told me, the beauty of NFP is eventhough we are preventing it, but we still let God works within us.

Well, for me, I can relate how Mother Mary felt when she received unexpected good news.
I believe she's shock too and her family and friends rejected her, talked back about her even St Joseph also wanted to leave her.
But she still obeyed Lord and walked by faith. And she's the only role model who inspires and gives me strength and courage to accept God's great tasks to me.

That's why throughout this journey, I have promised God that I accept this and I will do my best to give the best for all my children.
I will love, nurture and raise them as what God has asked me to do.

I may not be a perfect mother, but with His strength and love, I will walk together with Him to accomplish what He wants me to do

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Mom's development week 7 - Evening sickness

Like the second pregnancy, I have evening sickness too.
In the morning, I feel fresh and energetic to do all household chores and taking care Tromson but after 6pm, my body starts to change
I feel very cold especially if the window is open and feel very tired and nausea and sometimes I can't help to throw up all the dinner
Therefore I try to eat smaller portion and have early dinner

And I have no appetite too and so far no craving except sour fruit like plums or light food like salad.

Hopefully it will pass soon.

My currect weight is now 49.1 kg and hopefully I'll gain 10 kg max in total

Week 6 plus (5 March 2015)

Yesterday was first visit to doctor for this third pregnancy.
It was confirmed that I will have one baby due in mid of October
I could see that the heart beat was strong, the length was 7.78mm for 6 weeks 6 days old

Well, it's bigger than my first pregnancy and smaller than second one.
Hopefully the gender is different from both pregnancy *pray hard*

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Psalm 127

I pray to God to give me a wisdom and answer why You give us another child.
I said to God, I have more than what I could thank for with two blessed, lovely and healthy boys
and now with this one, I need to bear for 9 months and another one year of sleepless night and the list goes on.

My mind still can't comprehend with what has happened. With mood swing, it really makes my weekend not really enjoyable.

Until I found this beautiful verse psalm 127 as an answer

Psalm 127

A song of ascents. Of Solomon.

Unless the Lord builds the house,  the builders labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city, the guards stand watch in vain.
In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat—    for he grants sleep to[a] those he loves.
Children are a heritage from the Lordoffspring a reward from him.
Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are children born in one’s youth.
Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.
They will not be put to shame when they contend with their opponents in court
 And here's the explanation :
An Illustration of God’s Gifts of Grace
3 Behold, children are a gift of the LORD; The fruit of the womb is a reward.
4 Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, So are the children of one’s youth.
5 How blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them; They shall not be ashamed, When they speak with their enemies in the gate. (NASB)
Children provide an excellent conclusion to the argument of verses 1 and 2. Children illustrate and apply positively the truths previously taught from a somewhat negative perspective.
The provision of children differs from that for which men toil. When men work they are striving for wages, not a gift. Wages are what we produce with the work of our hands.
Gifts are those things generously and graciously given to us by another. Children, verse 3 informs us, are a gift from God. They are a great reward.
Isn’t it interesting that children, while given by God, are conceived when we are at rest, not when we toil. Children are normally conceived in bed. What a beautiful illustration, then, of what we are told in verse 2, that God gives to His beloved in his sleep.
In verses 4 and 5 we are taught that children, a gift from God, provide us with the very thing for which men strive in vain. A man may toil to build a house, but by giving us children God builds our home.
The watchman stands guard to provide security and protection, but the children God gives provide a greater security. Solomon poetically describes them as arrows in the hand of a warrior (v. 4). The children born in a man’s youth are strong and well established by the time he has reached old age.
His quiver full of children will look after the aged man and his wife. The city gate (v. 5) was the place of business. It was also the place where justice was administered (cf. Gen. 19:1; 34:20-21; Deut. 17:5). The Scriptures assume that the widows and the orphans were more vulnerable and in need of greater protection since they had no one (but God) to safe-guard their interests (Ex. 22:22; Deut. 10:18; 14:29; Ps. 94:6; Isa. 1:23).
The parents of many children had no such worry. Their children saw to it that their parents were treated with respect and with honesty and justice. Let their enemies try to take advantage of them!
The man who puts too much stock in his labor is the man who has failed to understand the grace of God. In His grace God has provided man with a time of rest and relaxation. And in His grace God has made provision for many of our needs through the gift of children. Contrary to the thinking of the workaholic, God’s gifts are not acquired by feverish efforts, burning the candle at both ends, but by resting in His grace
We, sadly enough, have reversed our priorities from that given in this Psalm. Many have come to view children as a curse and work as the means of finding fulfillment and security. This is evident in the trend of the women’s movement. They are seeking to be released from the “slavery and drudgery of homemaking.” Instead, they are pursuing careers to find “fulfillment.” This is demonstrated by two observations: at worst, many women prefer abortions to relinquishing their occupations. At best, other women are willing for their children to be raised by institutions rather than to rear their own children at home.
Do you remember how it was with the first family, with Adam and Eve? Work was a part of the curse, and children were an essential part of the promise. How was Eve to be fulfilled as a woman and to play a role in the salvation of mankind? By having a child. It was through her seed that Satan would be crushed

Third Pregnancy Journey 2015

It seems that I need to re-visit this blog again hahaha...
Well, here I am with 3rd pregnancy journey. In fact, this pregnancy comes as a surprise, without planning but God's willing

My period was a long cycle after the second one was born. It could stretch until 45 days
So when this was supposed to be last period hasn't come ontime, I was not worry and never thought about pregnancy

Until on Wednesday 25th February, I feel something different in my body
I feel weak, lazy and sleepy. The next morning, I throw up. I thought it's just tired and then I got sore throat so  that may be the culprit

But still, I feel something amiss and start suspecting that I may be with a child.

In the evening, hubby bought test pack and with anxiety I did a test on Friday morning, 27th February and's 2 lines meaning it's positive

I was shock, mixed feeling and my mind was blank.
All the plans that we have for this year and the following years seem all faded.
With this a new member of family means I need to start all over again...

I can't stop asking God why and why ??